If you know me, you know I’m all about self-growth ++ reflection… so naturally, when my birthday rolls around I think about what I want to work on for the following year.
When I turned 23, I started HATING my birthday + being scared of growing older — wrote a blog post on this… you can read it here!
A couple weekends ago, I attended my oldest childhood friend’s BABY shower — I cried after the shower out of happiness. It was the first time that I fully cherished the past, but didn’t feel a sense of longing for the past — the “I miss the old days.”
My mid twenties were the most challenging years of my life — for reasons that I’ve written about in the past, but also for some that I’ve kept personal.
My 27th year ((hello late twenties 😌)) I finally started to feel more myself than ever.
I feel so much room for growth as well, but in a beautiful unfolding, flowy way as opposed to a shaming, disciplined way. I trust in the journey. I trust my mind, heart, + spirit.
I went from questioning if I should delete social media to wanting to spend more time on social media because I realize the magic of this platform that allows all of us to have a voice.
Every Monday, we “draw cards” as a team + today I got the bat — it symbolized death ++ the need to let go of something, to close a chapter of my life.
I was so confused because I feel like I’m in such a good place in many aspects — what do I need to close?
Then I realized it was paving the way for my 28th year. It was telling me to release any emotional//physical junk that I’m still holding onto from my mid twenties as I fully step into 28 ((+ the rest of my late twenties 💜)).
I am so blessed to be ALIVE + I am ready for God to use more of me.
Wanted to share with you my favorite poem, called “Becoming A New Creation” —
In out-of-the way places of your heart
Where your thoughts never think to wander,
This beginning has quietly been forming
Waiting until you were ready to emerge
For a long time it has watched your desires
Feeling the emptiness growing inside you
Noticing how you willed yourself on
Still unable to leave what you had outgrown
It watched you play with the seduction of safety
+ the gray promises that sameness whispered
Heard the waves of turmoil rise + relent
Wondered why you would always want to live like this
Then the delight, when your courage kindled
+ our you stepped onto new ground
Your eyes young again with energy + dream
A path of plentitude opening before you
Though your destination is not clear yet
You can TRUST the promise of this opening
Unfurl yourself into the grace of the beginning
That is one with your life’s desires
Awaken your spirit to adventure
Hold nothing back, learn to find ease in the risk
Soon you will be home in a new rhythm
For your soul senses the world that awaits you… ❤
Rooting for you always. May you experience more love than you could ever imagine.